May 28, 2017

From May to May…

I can barely remember what I was feeling, this time last year. I recall a vague anxiety with a pinch of excitement. But that’s about it. But I know for sure that today marks a whole year of me moving away from home to live in the United States. A year that has been oddly educating and definitely humbling. I…missed being amidst loved ones during festivals, family dinners and important occasions for the extended family. Understood that America is quite different from what the movies and soaps want us to believe. Had my heart broken into a million pieces. Got involved in deep conversations with almost strangers sitting on wooden…

June 7, 2013

Day 7# Phobia

Franklin D. Roosevelt once said, “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” I believe that everyone fears something. The important thing is to know that in your heart, and never let it consume you. That’s what I try to do with mine. – I’m afraid of losing loved ones. So much that I block the thought consciously from my mind every time it slips in. – I am absolutely terrified of sharks. I’ve seen numerous documentaries, read thoroughly about hoe meaningless galeophobia is – but nothing seems to make it go away. Every time I think of myself in the deep blue, a shadow of the smirking…

September 19, 2012

World, Hold On…

You know that feeling when there’s so much you want to do but there seems to be strings tying you down?   That terrible ache when you see the world doing things that you’ve dreamt of?   That sinking thought which enters your head sometimes and whispers – “Maybe it’ll never happen for you.”?   That disappointment you feel when you’ve planned an entire trip and then have to erase it from your mind completely.   I find it extremely painful to know that the world is not equal. That some people have more than the others. I believe that if everyone had the same amount – everyone would have just…

August 21, 2012

The Week That Will Be…

This week has the makings of things I will remember for a while. Going to and fro between Gurgaon and Kolkata two times over. Incessant rainfall. A whole lot of goodbyes. Change. To say that I am terrified, is an understatement.