June 20, 2013

Day 20# Struggles.

So this is where it gets difficult and bare-it-all.  So I’ll make it quick.  I’m struggling with a couple of things at this point in life. One which is the most disturbing to me, is the lack of direction.  It is not just something trivial that I’m fussing about, but a matter of consequential importance to me.  Over the past ten years, I have grown to become a person who find it exceedingly important to be involved in something meaningful at the workplace, and make things count. I am often told of the grass is greener philosophy, but whatever I do, I need to be an enriching experience. Either I…

March 10, 2013

The Withdrawn Mathematician

Muscat, for me is so packed with memories that there is probably no such place that I can go to without being reminded that this is the place where I grew up.  Just this morning, on my way to work I spotted a man who looked like someone I knew. Identifying an uncanny resemblance, I twisted in my seat to get a better look as the car whooshed past. Hoping that it might just be him. My math teacher. Who, to me was one of the best educators one could have. A solitary man who lived a living as simple as simple could be. His entire life revolved around his…

October 3, 2012

Month-old

Seems like just the other day that I was packing bags and cartons to send via Gati to Kolkata. Only last week that I walked into the cabin at Edelman India to say goodbye. Just the last weekend that I had such a gloriously drunken time with the girls at home. And just like that I look at the calendar and it’s been a month at Zeenah today. It’s a funny feeling. I don’t know whether to be surprised at the fact that four weeks have rushed by. Or whether to wonder why I keep regular tabs on Edelman and what happens there. I haven’t written much about my work…

September 19, 2012

World, Hold On…

You know that feeling when there’s so much you want to do but there seems to be strings tying you down?   That terrible ache when you see the world doing things that you’ve dreamt of?   That sinking thought which enters your head sometimes and whispers – “Maybe it’ll never happen for you.”?   That disappointment you feel when you’ve planned an entire trip and then have to erase it from your mind completely.   I find it extremely painful to know that the world is not equal. That some people have more than the others. I believe that if everyone had the same amount – everyone would have just…

June 25, 2012

Bleeding Hart

It has been a really long time since I sat down and actually enjoyed football. I can clearly recall how the parents and I would sit down after dinner to watch the late matches of some FIFA World Cup. Baba would take a print out of the schedule and I would dutifully update it. The 2010 World Cup was an absolute blur and owing to my rubbish Gurgaon PG I didnt even catch the finals. Ever since I kind of lost track. The occassional twitter feeds informed me of the names, the legendary goals, how the club were faring and how Brazil 2014 might just be an absolute washout! Ankita who manages communications for…

June 5, 2012

Glory in the Flower

What though the radiance which was once so brightBe now for ever taken from my sight,Though nothing can bring back the hourOf splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;We will grieve not, rather findStrength in what remains behind; — I came across this verse by Wordsworth yesterday. He talks about the overcoming. The absolute necessity to stand up once you have fallen, time and again. The deriving strength from each time you have failed. The hope. It makes me tear, but it makes me resilient.

April 11, 2012

Keep Calm & Carry On

It has been impossible to miss the frenzy that the ‘Keep Calm’ series has become. From the original version, I have come across a variety of adaptations such as ‘Keep Calm & Do Some Cardio’, ‘Keep Calm & Fake a British Accent’, ‘Keep Calm & Conjure a Patronus Charm’ to the absolutely eccentric ‘Keep Calm & Be A Marwari’ ! All my time in London, I saw impressions of the message everywhere – in the Underground, Souvenir shops, T-shirts and Teacups. Made me all the more inquisitive to understand where this had originated. Only yesterday, I actually found out and what a brilliant story it was: Essentially, “Keep Calm and Carry…

February 27, 2012

Stoicism

I had once heard and I repeat, given the aptness of the situation;Sometimes what one needs to realise is that courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all. In times where so much seems to be in doubt, each day becomes more trying than the other, the only way out is – be brave.

January 20, 2012

The Good Life!

There are new songs on my playlist. It’s Friday. I am going home next week. My hair finally feels a little longer. I arranged for a birthday surprise and extracted a hug from an otherwise awkward-with-physical-contact person! There is close to zero visibilty due to fog from the window at work. I drafted a proposal at work – it was appreciated. More than once. This has been a good week, the next one will be even better!

January 13, 2012

The Resolute List

It is that time of the year to review last year’s resolution list and see how I’ve done. Referring back to last year’s post: 1. Learn to drive. Check. 2. Meet people, socialize positively. Sort of check. I have made a few really great friends this year. Nothing proactive, though. Nor romantic. 3. Lose weight. Uncheck. Bah, I haven’t even tried this one. To be transferred to the ‘To do’ carried forward list. 4. Learn to play the violin. I knew this was far fetched even while I was writing it last year. Someday, though. 5. Learn or re-learn a foreign language. Not doing very great, am I. But I…