August 9, 2012

Reverse Countdown

I never thought I would be looking forward to staying in Gurgaon. But as the date draws near, I find myself unconsciously counting backwards. Like now, I am one of three people in office and this is what I see in front of me. It might sound strange but I find the sight calming and happiness inducing. In my first two years of being here, there were numerous number of late nights that we spent at office. Music was played aloud, multi-cuisine food was ordered, illicit jokes were cracked (God bless that we had no CCTV surveillance) as we furiously typed away at presentations and plans. Those were the good days. These days…

May 28, 2012

Secrets and Lies

“In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act.” – George Orwell. I spent all of last week watching the American crime series – Criminal Minds. Usually not a huge fan of gore, there was something about it that kept me gripped. The series follows a team of profilers from the FBI’s Behavioral Analysis Unit (BAU) based in Quantico, Virginia who determine the cause of a crime from the pov of the criminal and then proceed to catch him. Mark Twain said “Of all the animals, man is the only one that is cruel. He is the only one who inflicts pain for the pleasure of…

May 4, 2012

Let Go

There will always be those days that you feel that its stupid to give and expect nothing But then those will come when you reminisce about the joy you experienced in the process And everything will be all worth it… — Like a fresh wound it will sting, as the distances grow For all the sweat and tears, seem to be a far dream It is true that if you love, you will hurt The only way to survive, is to let it go…

May 3, 2012

Two Years Since

And it seems like just the other day when I was on the flight from Muscat to Gurgaon. A city which I had heard only evil things about – so near the big bad Delhi (as most Bengalis perceive and teach their children), where everything is ‘unsafe’, extremely expensive, impersonal and positively scary. Just the other day that I was looking for paying-guest rooms and people to stay with in this new city. Just the other day that I was meekly walking through the doors of a company called Edelman India. Today marks two years to that day. What an extraordinary journey it has been. I have learned much – in the business…

April 23, 2012


 Expectation is the root of all evil. You can pour your heart out and can still not expect a speck of kindness in return. You can continue to believe in a better world, but you will be in it alone. There is no such things as companionship. Just these fleeting moments which seem as they might last for a while longer. The less you give a damn, the happier you will be. The more alone you are, the more safe.

December 21, 2011

Santa and the 80’s

The holiday spirit has set in at work. Our workstations now sport a mini Christmas tree, the reception and meeting rooms are alight. Last Friday the major action was around the office year-end party and Secret Santa. I was given a beautiful potted bamboo shoot plant and I had no idea all through the weekend who my Secret Santa was. Warming up to surprises as well, it seems 🙂 The evening get together was nothing like last year’s party.There were too many new faces. So many changed quotients. But there were traces of old friendships, familiar songs and some really fashionable dance moves. Like every year’s themed office bash, it…

July 12, 2011

A Lack of Colour

It’s a buzz, a distant commotion which can be only experienced. A feeling like no other. It’s not black, not white, not even gray. There seems to be the large mystery of what is yet to appear – a mirage perhaps. People say that all good things come with good time, but when will the time come?When will it not feel so empty and fathomless? What I feel everyday is not enough to complain about. There is no unhappiness. In fact, I have much more than what the average person expects. But the emptiness doesn’t seem to go away. Is it things, money, people or excellence? What will help quench…

July 4, 2011

Time of My Life

It never rains when you want it to. Life is unpredictable, as are the people who form it. That seems to my biggest problem with it. Why cannot we stay still for a while, why cannot things that have taken months and years to perfect, not rest a little for a moment – just so that one can admire the effort put into creating them. The older and the wiser tell me that this is the way of the world, that this is what is meant to be, this is what is necessary for the circle of the life to go on. My profound thoughts deeply triggered by the number…

June 20, 2011


Over the past two weekends, I have taken to quarantining myself to the house and doing absolutely nothing. A huge portion of the activity is attributed to the overbearing summers which are simply not in the mood to go away. Hence the Saturdays and the Sundays are spent in the confines of the single air conditioned room reading, catching up on sleep or watching movies/series on the laptop (Since the television is currently non-functional, Gah!). Most of these moments have also been alone time, with no one else at home, so I could pretty much do anything, wear anything, eat anything etcetera. Lately, I have also taken very seriously to…