March 25, 2019

Some Good

Familiarity breeds comfort. I talk about this quite often because I don’t only believe it, I live it. It’s difficult to find the familiar in a new city, among new people and new situations. But there are some things that stay constant. I find one of my constants in the books I grew up with – the characters who always taught me that I was not alone. They do the same today. During my daily lunchtime Twitter scroll today, I discovered that it was Tolkien Reading Day (celebrated by the society on the day that the one ring was said to have been destroyed) and got thinking about my annual…

June 25, 2018

Tired of being brave

There’s a thin line between bravery and stupidity. Over the past few months, I haven’t been able to keep count of the number of times I’ve been told that I’m brave. I only wish resilience was an elixir I could consume to help me be stronger. In my experience, the more you put yourself through, the farther you stretch, your capacity to absorb blows increase, but it also wrecks something within you. At least that’s what’s happening with me. I cannot remember the last time I felt happy or at peace. I cannot remember when I last sat across a table from someone I love and spoke without any awkwardness…

February 13, 2017

About a Story…

Over eight months ago, I enrolled myself in school and moved to ‘Murica. Much has happened in the United States since – more on that later – but one of the things I was most excited about, was getting back to academics. Among many experiences that made coming here worth it was a class I took last Fall. Titled ‘Branding through Motion Picture’ and taught by a three-time Emmy nominated write-producer-director – it was the most brilliant class I have ever been in.  After spending six years working in public relations firms, writing up “strategic communication campaigns” – I came to realise how we skim over the basics, while trying…

February 13, 2017

Restart.

After publishing a whopping three posts in all of last year, I promised myself in January of 2017 that this year would be different. It had to. But all of the first month was spent draped in the weight of some critically incorrect decisions I had made formerly. I couldn’t keep my word. I have much to say about the previous year, There were highs, lows, really low lows and when it felt like I had hit rock bottom – I found that there was still a rather long way further to sink. I talk about this in the past tense not because they are over. Not because all the…

August 1, 2016

“It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone.” – Rose Kennedy.

December 20, 2015

Where is the love?

I know it’s that time of the year where all is good and jolly, but for a while I have struggled with some negativity and I thought that now would be a good time to let it go.  I’m not sure whether this has anything to do with my star sign or the fact that I have been raised with stories of the goodness in people, that I do not yet look for the worst in humankind, at the first go. When I meet someone new, I am usually excited – and find myself thinking that perhaps we will be great friends, perhaps I will find someone as driven to…

February 22, 2015

Some people will spend all their lives trying to get the approval of othersIn return, they will be rewarded with hurt and retributionA true retort as anyIn this cruel cruel world

September 22, 2014

It’s a Wonderful Lie

Everybody liesAnd there are no exceptions You’re all by yourself in this abyssSo don’t ever take off that armour Don’t take any bullshitDon’t let people get away with things you think they shouldn’tDon’t let yourself be treated badlyDon’t stop fighting back And whatever you do,Don’t talk about it.

March 15, 2014

Uncomfortably Numb

It’s a place where you are no one   Where there is no shoulder you can lean on  No clouds to protect you from the angry gaze  Nobody to wipe your tears  Not one person who looks back  That might be what lies ahead.   That scares me to the bones. And leaves me feeling numb for hours.  I don’t want to reach here.